Giving up driving
soon after my diagnosis in 2010 was the first step to a smaller world. After
hearing that my reaction time was compromised I didn't dare argue as there had
been several incidents by that time. I was forced to switch to an automatic car
the year before because I couldn't control the clutch. I had also lost the
proprioception in my feet, as well as spatial perception, which caused me to
misjudge distances. In one case I hit the handle bars of a cyclist with my side
mirror. Fortunately for both of us it only caused him to wobble wildly. The
renewal of my driver's license is now due, but it will be best for other road
users that I finally give up on that dream.
I’m still hanging onto my car though!
As time went by I
stopped buying magazines. I had lost interest because I could no
longer try new recipes, changes in the garden would be impossible, and fashion
was dictated by a drastically different lifestyle.
Reading the
newspaper with my coffee in the morning had been a part of my daily routine for
decades. This too had to be given up recently as I had a frustrating battled with the big floppy
pages. Yes, I can read it on the internet, but it's not quite the same relaxing
intimate experience.
Technology has
come to my rescue and I read a lot more books on the kindle, which is easy to
handle and light to handle, and where I can change to what my son
calls; ‘old-people-font’.
We used to be enthusiastic
movie goers, but now have to wait for movies to appear on Box Office or dvd so I can watch from the comfort of my 'lazy-girl'.
In the lazy-girl with Milo, Maggie, and friend Ermanno Aiello 21 Aug 13 |
I am therefore
thankful for facebook, email, and internet which makes the world a smaller
place in a better way. It has brought me contact with groups and friends from
all corners of the globe.
The only problem
is that I have slowed down to a snail's pace. Typing is slow and full of
mistakes, which I feel obligated to correct. I have forgotten how to spell, words
are written incomplete. My thoughts start on one trail to jump to another
mid-sentence, and consequently sentences end up making little sense. Keeping up
with all the groups, posts, and blogs has become an impossible task. I more often just click like, without leaving
a comment.
Emails are red
flagged but seldom answered. My to-do list ,full of fabulous ideas, grows
endless, but not much gets done.
I am currently in
a state of panic as I'll soon have to cut down on some of the groups I follow
and posts I read.
2 Corinthians 4:1
Therefore,
since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.