Thursday, April 16, 2015


My body shudders with spasms.  This has been going on for days. Struck down by what the neurologist diagnosed as Dystonia. The prescribed medication seem ineffective to control the current attack. I am disappointed. Johnny, who took the day off to take me out to lunch, now we will have to cancel our reservation. This was going to be the celebration of our 41st anniversary.

Desperate, I decide to self-medicate and use something that seemed to help before. An hour later I struggle to keep my eyes open.  Without the necessary concentration levels to read,  I lie in front of the television, going in and out of a dream-like state. My nervous system seem to suffer a sensory overload, the daylight is too bright, even with closed eyes.  I'm aware of Johnny hopping through the sport channels.

Any loud noises from the television, brings on another vicious attack. My  legs kick out in a spasm over which I have no control for a couple of seconds, but I remain fully aware during the disagreeable duration.

Clawing my way to peer over the edge of awareness, I remember that day this drug seemed to help, instantly wide awake, I realise it couldn't have been the drug, or it would have helped now. I smile: "That was you God!  You knew that was a big day for me,  You took care of me whilst I thought it was the drug. I get it Lord. I only need to ask and trust you.  You care, even about the little details of my life. Thank you Lord." God is silent. I imagine Him smiling at my epiphany.

The next morning I awoke without any spasms.  I check with Johnny if I really saw an elephant on television break away from its mahout,  to go on a rampage killing several and injury about two dozen.  He says; "yes". I check with him whether I really saw a flock of seagulls flew into race horses at full speed, causing the horses to buck, leaving buck a field of dead and injured jockeys in their wake. He says; "yes". It  wasn't a drug infused dream. It was real.

Psalm 37: 5
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust in Him, and He will do this

Matthew 21:22
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer

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